Why I Chose Not to Medicate My Depression
I remember the feeling of standing in my dorm room at 19 years old and wanting to end my life. I didnâ€™t have strong relationships with anyone and I felt worthless. I could be in a room of people and still feel alone. It was an awful feeling coupled with unbelievably high levels anxiety. I was either shaking or completely numb and still. I called the schools emergency hotline that day. Something inside me wasnâ€™t ready to commit to the permanency of death. The school psychologist rushed over and sat with me until my parents flew down. It was an extremely embarrassing feeling, but clearly the angel on my right shoulder was winning the battle with darkness that day.
Fruits and Veggies by the Cup Full
No one ever got fat from eating a piece of fruit. I often tell people that even if youâ€™re at your caloric intake for the day and you get hungry, go for an apple or crunchy veggies. Your body LOVES fruits and veggies. It wants them! They are packed with natural sugars and fiber, are easy to break down, and are way healthier than grabbing a processed snack like a power bar. Most are low in calories which means it wonâ€™t make you pop buttons if you have some extra servings. At the end of the day, they are whole foods and whole foods are what you should be putting in your body. So here are my rules about eating your fruits and veggies.
Don’t Forget to Laugh
Having suffered from depression Iâ€™ve learned that the faster you can acknowledge your stressors and them let them go, the happier youâ€™ll be. Sleep may help cure all sorts of things that ail you, but laughter is really the best medicine.
You are a badass. No, really! You are. You should tell yourself things like this every day. Don’t wait for someone else to validate how awesome you are. It’s about knowing your own self-worth and realizing your own potential. Sure, it’s nice when other people see that, but at the end of the day, you need to be your own cheerleader. Most of your self-confidence and drive should come from how you view yourself. What makes you badass? Are you a wiz at work? An adventure seeker? Really good at a hobby? You don’t need to be an army ranger or thrill seeker to be a badass.
Love With Your Whole Heart
Love. Love is the craziest of all feelings. What I find strange about it is that it can be as all consuming as grief and hurt just as much. For those of us who have incredibly open hearts, life can sometimes suck. Loving people and things with your whole heart, with every fiber of our beings, can leave us extremely vulnerable and susceptible to unbelievable pain when this kind of love is not returned… but I wouldnâ€™t live my life any other way. This kind of love has allowed me to help myself, and most of all, help others. I always say, â€œgive of yourself, if and when you can.â€ Giving to charity is something that is very important to me, but Iâ€™m not a Rockefeller, so monetary donations canâ€™t happen as often as I’d like, but what I can give all the time is LOVE.
Mind Over Matter
Any time I was afraid of something or felt my body giving in to illness, I remember my mom saying, â€œmind of matterâ€. Unfortunately, that statement isnâ€™t very true when it comes to getting sick. I mean, Iâ€™ve successfully held off vomiting a few times, but always succumbed to it not matter how hard I thought I wouldnâ€™t let myself get sick. As far as conquering fears though, I think this is definitely true. It all comes back to the mind being incredibly powerful.
Does anyone else tend to feel bad for having â€œme timeâ€? Have you ever been getting your nails done and thought, â€œwhy am I spending money on this when I could be donating it to charityâ€? I know there is always part of me that feels guilty for pampering myself, but I work hard and I need to start feeling more comfortable with taking care of myself, as should you.
The Law of Attraction
Iâ€™ve talked about the fakers and the doers in another blog. They are people that either talk a lot of game or theyâ€™re actually working hard and doing things. When it comes to achieving your goals, itâ€™s important to set intentions by speaking and writing what you want. Iâ€™ve watched the documentary The Secret about a dozen times. The Secret addresses the law of attraction. What you put into the world, you get back. Your thoughts are vibrations and have the ability to attract the things, but if you donâ€™t actively work for your goals, will you achieve them?