Nikki Lee and Her Boyfriend Andy
Nikki Lee and Her Boyfriend Andy

Love. Love is the craziest of all feelings. What I find strange about it is that it can be as all consuming as grief and hurt just as much. For those of us who have incredibly open hearts, life can sometimes suck. Loving people and things with your whole heart, with every fiber of our beings, can leave us extremely vulnerable and susceptible to unbelievable pain when this kind of love is not returned… but I wouldn’t live my life any other way. This kind of love has allowed me to help myself, and most of all, help others. I always say, “give of yourself, if and when you can.” Giving to charity is something that is very important to me, but I’m not a Rockefeller, so monetary donations can’t happen as often as I’d like, but what I can give all the time is LOVE.

Being completely open is both a blessing and a curse. I fall in love easily, with people and things. I care about how others feel even when they’re terrible people. I’m extremely sensitive. These qualities all sound horrible, but in reality, I know it’s what makes me a good person. My vibration is positive. The love I put out into the world is empathetic, trusting, and sincere. I have been burned many times for caring too much and like most people, a wall gets put up. Over the years, I’ve learned to “feel all the feels” and be okay with this. There is no more wall around my heart. I believe that if you are feeling something it’s because you are meant to learn something from it. Putting up a wall when you’re hurt doesn’t allow you to take in the situation and learn to deal with things when the same situation arrives later in life.

Openly having a heart full of love is scary. It is raw. It is a dance with fire. I can look back at failed relationships and honestly say that, “I still love_____ because they taught me _________ about myself”. This is how I continue to love so openly. Sure, there are people, boyfriends, and friends that I once had in my life that aren’t there any more for whatever reason, but looking back, I know they needed to be in my world at that time. These failed relationships have made my ability to feel, give, and receive love stronger because I took valuable lessons away from each situation. Loving the wrong people teaches you to approach negative situations through love and understanding.

I’ve kept out personal examples from this post because I don’t believe in airing your dirty laundry for the world. You don’t fight fire with fire right? When someone sends hate or negativity your way, always respond with love. How many Disney movies have hit that nail on the head? “True love conquers all.” It really does. Learn to open your heart. Let yourself be vulnerable. FEEL all the feelings you have. With love in your heart, the world will treat you with respect and adoration. Keep your vibration high and full of light.