Itâ€™s important to reflect on our lives. To think about all the choices weâ€™ve made, the memories we have, and the dreams we havenâ€™t gone after forms us as individuals and promotes change. Have you ever sat and reflected on a situation and thought, “Man, I wish I would have done it this way…”? Well, by taking that time to reflect, youâ€™ve already started conditioning yourself to do things differently the next time around or let go of any negative feelings you had.
For the most recent issue of Abra-zine, an online global arts magazine, the theme was Reflections. I reflected on the past couple years of my life and how much Iâ€™ve changed, learned, and become. So, I shared my story of an unsustainable lifestyle and finding happiness in all the wrong places in hopes that I could inspire someone to sit down and really think about how their life is working… if itâ€™s working…
I moved to Los Angeles two weeks after I graduated college. I had no job lined up… just a dream. Luckily, most of my friends from film school were making the same move. I had a support system. Hollywood is everything you think it is. Itâ€™s glamour and fun, but itâ€™s also tough and dark. Los Angeles catapulted me into a much needed lifestyle change. When I arrived, I was 160lbs of unhealthy, self-loathing ratchetness. I was a mess, but somehow, Hollywood pushed me into eating better and working out. I quickly realized that it was the anti-depressant I needed, but it also wound up being an addiction.